Everyone goes through...

Everyone goes through...

• Confusion. This may be about love, friendship, car, dress, shoes, cell phone, house, gender preference, work, food, etc. This time, I'm writing this because I'm confused with work. As previously stated, I'm staying in this company for the experience and knowledge. If I haven't stated it before, I'm 60% staying because of my friends; 40% staying because of my immediate boss. If it weren't for these people, I would definitely leave. I have no interest in information technology, and no interest in facing the people I hate.

• Challenges. Well, this is cliche. This is given. This is obvious. This is overstated. I'm writing it again because I'm going through one, and I'm not sure I want to face this challenge. You know how your friends would tell you, "you can do it", "this too shall pass", "that's nothing"? Well, I know this is something that I could easily surpass and get over with, but for the record, this is something I don't want myself in. My blog is very public and I don't care if he ever comes across this site; but I wanna say that I don't like dealing with "smart" people who cannot accept their mistakes/shortcomings. I hate dealing with hypocrites who point out others' mistakes before realizing their own. I hate dealing with "managers" who think they could just step on other people just cause they're in position. No, I cannot tolerate that. Given that, I am seriously considering a lot of things.

• Lack of faith. Well, yeah. I pray a lot. I pray on most parts of my day, but somehow because of the challenge I'm in, I see myself very distant from God and I don't like this feeling. Among the three I've written, this is the most important thing to me. Every time I go through something, God has always been the best solution and He has always been there to support me. I may not see Him, but I feel Him, and I recognize the "help" He's sending me. This time, because of my angst, resentment and anger, I've been seeing no light so far. This is bad, cause I normally care less knowing God has my back. Uhm, well, yeah. I know He has my back now, but I don't know why I feel like I hit rock bottom.

Okay, so why am I ranting again? As we all know, writing is a very good outlet of emotions. And yes, I want to remember this incident in the future. I want to read about it, and laugh about it. If you find this entry gibberish, then congratulations and thank you for wasting your time on it.