Wake Up Call & Lesson Learned

As a child, you would always be told by your parents to study hard so you could get good grades, go to a good college, get a good job, and finally, a good life. I was never really the type to go home and read my books. I have my very serious moments, but no... It was never really my thing. Final examinations, for example. I don't really take studying for it seriously because I always had this thinking that I will never ever be like those students who have amazingly high grades even if I study hard. There were times I proved myself wrong and actually have the amazing grades I always wanted, so I think it's all because of my laziness. 

I'm taking up Bachelor of Science in Entrepreneurship and people know that you don't really have to be "book smart" as an Entrepreneur; you have to be street smart. I guess I could fall into that category, since I'm better off with non-academic stuff or anything that can be learned through books. Then again, as an Entrepreneur, I think you shouldn't be, uhm... book dumb? Lol.

In life, we go to school to learn the basics in life - Math, English (grammar, vocabulary, writing), Science, History, and Theology (Christian Faith). These are all important to our lives...but do they really teach us the things that give our hearts peace? -- okay, that sounded a little corny, but, seriously speaking, does it? No, I don't think so. We learn things the hard way.

Let me share something I've experienced just this week.

• Everyone around me knows how capricious I am and every single one of them has told me to stop buying things I don't need and practice saving money. I never really learned how cause every time I have saved a little, I'd just spend again. 
• Life's teaching: My Globe bill (this month) reached ₱13,165 and I think 90% of it is because of internet usage. No no no, I don't use the internet...I used wifi to connect to BB App World but I didn't know that every time the wifi signal gets fucked up, it automatically switches to myGlobe internet. In addition to that, I still believe a cell phone's purpose is to call and text; and buying my BlackBerry was part of my capriciousness cause I had a perfectly good phone.
• Lesson learned: Be content/ed with what you already have and save as much money as you can. It doesn't really mean "hey, stop buying stuff. Save all your money". No one is that stupid not to know when enough is enough.

Having a bill that much from my supposed ₱600 plan is one perfect example of learning things the hard way. Life welcomes us every day to different situations and repeat them so the next time it happens, we'd know what to do.

Guess what? I'm also talking about faith. I always think that every time I'm faced with such problems, God is asking me to come to Him. He's like "making papansin" so that I'd seek Him. But isn't that sad? Do we really have to have problems just so we would turn to Him? I hope you're not guilty of this. I am not, cause I have a deep relationship with Him, but recently, it has been a cold relationship, so I guess He's just inviting me again.

Wake Up Call

I'm finally tired of having financial problems as early as college, so I've decided to work on my capriciousness and laziness. I know I've said this a million times already.......but 13k is just too much. It's time.

Questions

Each and every one of us have our own sets of questions in life. Some question their gender, their friends, their boyfriends, their attitude, their family, their grades, their faith (oh dear God I hope not). I think it's okay to have questions because asking these things make us realize one thing: there is a reason behind everything that is happening.

I've recently heard different situations of boyfriend-girlfriend relationship from different people and I can't help but wonder why most of the time (scratch that. I meant all the time), love is not enough. I had to go to my Multiply to find this quote/passage/saying I blogged cause it really helps us with a few of our questions in love.

"I received a text message a few years ago that scientifically speaking, love fades in approximately several years. The love in a relationship withers but not totally. It still depends on the couple whether they'll stay in love or not. "

So yeah. Scientifically speaking, love is really not enough. There are things that are easy to say but hard to do but I just realized that the things that are "hard" to do are things that are pretty easy, we just don't want to go that way. It's not really hard, we just don't want to. Just like what the older people say: "If you want it, you would do it. If you don't want it, there are reasons". I am not a perfect girlfriend and I know I am a bad girlfriend in some cases, but I think I'll be all good someday. I just need to figure out some things and understand who I am first.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, we could make love be enough to save one relationship. Of course there will be a lot of rocky roads along the way, but you know...asking for God's guidance and having faith in each other are the two things that are essential in one relationship. I don't have the perfect relationship with Chuck, I know. I also know that I do not handle a few things the way I should. Give me a break. We've been together for three years and two months already, but I know our journey has just begun. We have yet to find out a lot of things about each other. With this, I ask for full strength from God to accept that things change. Those problem-free days are gone, but they will never be erased.

Gentlemen, when you've done something wrong to your ladies, try to look up to Usher and apply what you hear. Helps a lot.

I was out doin my dirt

wasn't thinkin bout you gettin hurt,

I was hand in hand in the Beverly Center like man

Not givin a damn who sees me

So gone, so wrong

Actin like I didnt have you sittin at home

Thinkin about me bein the good girl that you are

Bet u probably believe you got a good man;

a man that would never do the things im about to tell you I've done 

Brace yourself, it ain't good

but it would be the worst if you heard this from somebody else

Baby, everything be all good

I don't wanna lose you

but I know what i'm tellin you ain't gonna make you wanna stay;

probaly just wanna run away

I'm mad enough to punch me in my face

I've been livin like an idiot

and I deserve every bit of it, I know

Today is the day that I end 

all the lying and playing and the bullshit girl

I'm sorry

Baby, I'm sorry

but I can no longer walk around 

with this stress on my chest

I confess

But when you look at me, do you see your wife?

Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?

Are you playin' the role, just like the rest

These are the questions that I ask myself

BlogBerry

From now on, every time I'm going to blog about my phone, it's gonna be entitled BlogBerry. Okay, Stradmore people! I know you own the word, I am just borrowing it.

Anyway, I just wanted to update my blog about the BB Social that I couldn't use for a week -- IT'S OKAY NOW!! I am ecstatic. After a week of losing hope, sadness and insecurity.... FINALLY! I had it exchanged last Saturday and didn't leave the shop until it worked. Whew, patience is truly a virtue.